I am grateful for many reasons, that I sleep under a
net every night. It mostly keeps any intruding bug away from me. On occasion a
small one manages to sneak in, but I feel so much better having it here. Strangely
I wonder if I will miss it when I go back to the US. It makes my bed almost
like a little fort, or small comfortable safe place to be. When I was a kid
growing up, I loved to sleep in a tent in my living room, or go camping with my
family, or build a fort in the middle of my Livingroom. Now sleeping under my
mosquito net, I am transported back to those moments of sleeping in a fort or
tent, but my bed here is much more comfortable than an air mattress or the
floor.
There are little pockets of pure joy and relaxation
that exist for me here. There is so much that happens every day. There are many
challenges, but these moments of joy bring so much relief. Toto's Africa has
been on repeat in my head, and sometimes in my room, since arriving in Africa.
Now that rain season is more fully upon us it is in my brain even more. I have
always been someone who enjoys rain and storms. I find so much enjoyment from
watching the rain storms here and running around in the rain. Lying in bed at
night and listening to the storms, or walking from the food stand in the dark
right before the storm starts, is pure joy for me.
It is in those pockets of happiness and joy that I
find the work I am doing more easily to be done. Without the good moments,
those happy times, living here in South Sudan would be a very hard time. When
the days get hard and the work and general life here gets overwhelming, I try
to focus on those good moments. Lying in bed last night I was struggling,
feeling very upset, and struggling not to feel overwhelmingly depressed and
sad. But I listened to the crickets in my room and the storm outside and I
found peace. Today is a new day to wake up and see what will come. The good and
the bad and embrace it all and move forward.
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